Day 8

I feel like the good vibes are coming back.

Last night was great and this morning wasn't all that bad. There are only 11 days of school left. Year 2 is going to be GREAT. Looking up...

I like it when celebrities die and people think they are still alive. This seems like one of the most convenient ways to live forever. You know...like Elvis and JFK...people still think they are alive even though they'd be super old. Or Tupac and Biggie are kicking it on an island somewhere with all the money they've made on posthumous record sales. These things aren't true of course...but there are always just enough suspicious circumstances to offer hope.

I think that nobody has done this better than Andy Kaufman. Regardless of whether Kaufman faked his own death or not, he did live a life that made it possible for him to offer sufficient doubt at his death. Faking death would just be SOOOOO Andy Kaufman. Here's a guy who never even gave a shit if you or anyone else thought a joke was funny...if HE thought it was funny it was funny. So had he faked his own death, as part of an elaborate joke, it would not even matter to him if anyone ever knew about it. It would still be funny to him. I think Andy Kaufman is still alive, even if he is dead, cause he just played that game so well.

I'm not really like Andy Kaufman. I like to think I am. True, I do crack myself up a lot and I can certainly laugh at myself and others without anyone joining in. But in the end I truly crave a reaction. If I am in a zone I want you to be laughing...whether it is with me or at me does not matter. I love being laughed at and do not find it insulting at all. If I found a way to make you smile and enjoy yourself and improve the vibes in the room I have won and you have too. And I want you to make me laugh too. So make me laugh.

goodnight